currently listenting to Ignition by R.Kelly
what a night with all the craps going on with my life, somehow i cannot hold my breath or even let the air in for a second. what i am doing right now is what i want to do and dream to do, so what is the goddamn problem here? why am i not enjoying being crazily and absurdly busy in real life? you know why--i just want to be perfect and why is that a problem?
amsterdam is the place to be--be high, be happy and be free. i like amsterdam because i dont even want to be a tourist by giving those bullshit brochures about the places of interests and all i want to do is being happy, that is to say, being high from smoking. i cannot recall how i come over all the difficuties and get back to London but i had a blast in amsterdam, spirtually and physically. however, this month is not my month--its just things are going towards the way you hope to be, reversely, going agaist it. this sucks balls. unfortunately, it happened A LOT recently.
went to van gogh museum, i still never thought i would be so moved and impacted by all the paintings and drawings, they are astonishing, especially you are looking at them with some inspiration of arts.
im literally stressed out by this damn internship application--cover letter, resume and email--i know exactly how i should format and everything is in my mind but i just cant compose a sentence and put all the words together. maybe im tired. maybe life itself is not easy to live up.
all i need is love. work-out is a must. classes and work are required. travelling is necessary. exam is priority. but life is a crap.
to=do=list:
1. G space space Mt.
2. In ter n space space
3. Reading.
4. Brussel, Bacelona or Copenhagen?
good night, im going to crash in bed and dream the hell out of reality.
ROY. I had no idea you had a blog. I am excited beyond words because you CRACK. ME. UP.
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