Scotland: 50p of rainboots

currently listening to Love the way you lie by Eminem

my favorite quotes
"you are too cool for school"--MA
"you are special. you are just beautiful in every single way."--DB

many times i almost cry when i am walking in the middle of london having a feeling of lost, or when i am climbing the mountains with some sort of loneliness or when im falling asleep next to someone i like or i imagine i like. moments are to be remembered or made people moved--tears in the eyes, just running.

fort william-glenfinann-edinburgh. scotland reminds me of two places that i have been to and i hope to go back again--interlaken and cape town. interlaken, a small and beautiful mountain-view town, is situated in switzerland-so peaceful and astonishing just by chilling around. cape town, at the south of africa, owns mountains and oceans. scotland, in my image, is surrounded by these natural gifts with its unique colors.  still in shock about the multi-layers design of edinburgh, i thought it was mysterious that you could always see another lower level layer at where you are standing.

i used to write a lot of journals, short stories and poetry to keep track of my life, to have something in memory or to feel occupied. later on, when my life is becoming complicated, there is no time for me to narrate what my life consist of. it is moving on without any sort of clues or hints. so i wonder what the point of writing journals, dairy, or even blogs--i mean if all the writings are about what exactly i did--these will be boring, who cares? rather, i would like to have these days to be forgotten or to be none--just having the moment of myself and doing nothing at all.

some major words.
napping-whisky-rejection-scotish dance-walking in the rain-"things i love about Roy"-Empty-hiking-being stupid-cat-7 beers and 2 shots-stay loneliness-being cool-reindeer

make yourself dirty. im telling you that 50p is worth every single penny . last word, maybe you can leave yourself some time and some space to figure out another side of you but i decide not to like you any more. i love the way you lie.

scots. we need to spend some time with ourselves,at least, i do. when the sun rises, i should say good bye and good night to myself.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM.

Amsterdam--smoking is legal

currently listenting to Ignition by R.Kelly

what a night with all the craps going on with my life, somehow i cannot hold my breath or even let the air in for a second. what i am doing right now is what i want to do and dream to do, so what is the goddamn problem here? why am i not enjoying being crazily and absurdly busy in real life? you know why--i just want to be perfect and why is that a problem?

amsterdam is the place to be--be high, be happy and be free. i like amsterdam because i dont even want to be a tourist by giving those bullshit brochures about the places of interests and all i want to do is being happy, that is to say, being high from smoking. i cannot recall how i come over all the difficuties and get back to London but i had a blast in amsterdam, spirtually and physically. however, this month is not my month--its just things are going towards the way you hope to be, reversely, going agaist it. this sucks balls. unfortunately, it happened  A LOT recently.

went to van gogh museum, i still never thought i would be so moved and impacted by all the paintings and drawings, they are astonishing, especially you are looking at them with some inspiration of arts.

im literally stressed out by this damn internship application--cover letter, resume and email--i know exactly how i should format and everything is in my mind but i just cant compose a sentence and put all the words together. maybe im tired. maybe life itself is not easy to live up.

all i need is love.  work-out is a must. classes and work are required. travelling is necessary. exam is priority. but life is a crap.

to=do=list:
1. G space space Mt.
2. In ter n space space
3. Reading.
4. Brussel, Bacelona or Copenhagen?

good night, im going to crash in bed and dream the hell out of reality.